Life goes on no matter what♥

2010-03-31T01:47:00.005+08:00

super long w/o updates! just feel like posting something here regardles who is reading this blog, its been quite some time since i felt like this. and i hope that time will jus stop there for us to be tgt all the while cuz i seriously enjoyed ur company very much. how to train your dragon was a nice movie. see so cute right the dragon. hahahas. black fury. the tickts. =) lets jus pray hard there would b more time to be spent with you =)

2009-06-04T00:22:00.002+08:00

its been a long time since i update. goin to be a mth or so. juz no feel to update, and lots of stuff happen recently. Just too much to say,idk, whats goin on my mind. PRESSURE? STRESS? of WHAT? idk.im just in a dilemia. i feel like crying out. when nobody is watching, cry as hard as i can. why? idk. life is just not smooth for mi. Relationship, money, studies. whatsoever. i just feel tht im a big time loser. be it life, game, relationship. If u are reading this, MAY, say its true and make mi feel better. No other meanings but just wnnna know how i look like to you. Can i change for the better? Am i too emotional? I just feel that im veri weak. Very very WEAK!

i have a fren tht suddenly asks mi. Fei, u gt XING SHI one meh? Cant realli see lei. You always laugh laugh lidat. And i start to ask myself back. Do i realli look like im carefree? Am i tht strong to hide away all my feelings when i am tired? Maybe a yes? maybe a No. Im weak. Strong on the outside but super weak on the inside. Why the sudden pressure within mi? I juz hope for someone i really love to stand by mi all the time. Watch mi fall and watch mi rise. Go through with me all the things that i encounter. Walk throught my life with me. Is it that hard to find the right one? Im thinking of you all the time. I may juz noe u for months but the image of you are always running through my mind. Im sick and tired of this life.

I so want to confess out what im trying to say. But i think its still early. And i don have the courage. The courage to get an answer that i always hate. WHY? because i cant accept to fail. To fall again. To have my heart broken again. This road is still long. I wanna walk with you throughout this year and hopefully the rest of my life. I know that right now studies is the most important thing. I just cant take it down that why cant we balance our life with work, studies, friends and love. Im sick and tired of this type of life. IM A TOTAL FAILURE. A BIG FUCKING FAILURE.

2009-05-07T00:53:00.002+08:00

sometimes i feel tht im a loser, and a big time loser. never have i acomplish anything big or the things i wan. issit the way i am? can i change it? idk. so much for this. idk why, im feeling veri down. and now my drinking standard = sucks. so sucks. BUAY GAN LIAO! a bot or martell and abit mo. -.- WHAT IS WRONG WITH U ANG WEE KIAT! slaps myself hard. WAKE UP DUDE!

2009-04-28T20:48:00.000+08:00

Its been a mth ever since i update my blog. Don have the vibe to update also. Alot of things happen in a mth. Friends were everywhr. And somehow i feel tht history is repeatng itself again now.

Im feeling what i felt a year ago. The feeligs were exactly the same. It may no be long ever since i know you. But its as if i know you for a long time. It was diff other girls teat mi like you do. The thing abt you is that u are so special, unique till i cant tell wats so distinctive about you. You stnd out fro the crowd. And i could recognise you amongst the huge crowd.You said you werent pretty, but in fact, i find you pretty in a way that is so different from others.

Lets hope what im thinking now is good, and i dowan history to repeat itself again, im goin 20. old enough to not play a fool in my life. Im missing you. =(

2009-03-29T18:43:00.003+08:00

Why? Why others can love so happily and so comfortable, but mi? Its so hard for mi. So painful, so hurtful. It was my fault to step in, but this step in will nv reverse and make mi veri hard to step out again Genting was a nice trip, definitely with you. The 4 days was so totally memorable. =) and if u are reading this, THANKS FOR THE COMPANY~

Im so so lazy to post pics up here as i haven gt any of them yet. And *** i've fallen too deep liao. Whatever im doing, anytime, you are always on my mind. Its as if you are alr part of my life. I didnt wan to expect much. Just hope thtat u can spend more time with mi onli. This sure is messy. I know. But i can onli sae tht ILU. Nth else. bye

2009-03-20T00:57:00.001+08:00

A cup of hot coffee, a book of new york times #1 seller (Twilight) and som oldies played on my speaker definitely makes the night wonderful =)

2009-03-18T03:33:00.002+08:00

OK IM SUPER HUNGRY NOW~~~~ Don relli wan to do anything abt it. And im starting to feel real fat. And imean it. No more late supper maggie mees. No more slacking ard nuaing at hm. Im so gonna hit the gym like 3-4 times a week, take my duromine supply from my pharmacy,and did i mention tht i gt the prescribtion by the doc like finally. Aft much talking cock to him. =D ok. resolution done! 10kg within 2 mths.

my protein supplyment will have to wait awhile more. And im still thinking whether to buy the fat burning pills from tsw and eat it tgt with duromine. I shall put my heart into these. And last but not least. Premium will be my target for this mth. *9 more to go! all the best la. I know i can do it =x

2009-03-09T21:23:00.004+08:00

WARNING: BLOGER CONTENT MAY CAUSE DISTURBANCE TO SOME, IF YOU HAVE A WEAK HEART, PLEASE LEAVE THIS SITE NOW!

Ok, I cut my last pinkie yst, how stupid. and to prove tht my knife was realli sharp, aft 1 slice, poof! nail gone! These pics may look eeeewwww to u, but it happens to mi. GOD DAMN IT! i don feel any pain at first, i onli see my nail on the chopping board, and the next thing i know, my blood like free. My shoes are all soaked in blood, and dad ask mi to go home with onli a tissue paper wrappng ard it, aft 5 mins, my hand goes numb, and no ciggs. CCB. so went minimart buy ciggs and the auntie scream like nv see b4. =.= onli tissue paper turn red nia. faster go home, light cigg and start bandaging. =.=

HERE U GO, THE PICS SAYS IT ALL.

And this aftn, i had a realli bad dream, idk why. its as if i experienced the whole thing 9 mths ago again. I have alr dropped things down by my stride. FORGET EVERYTHING? Unless i have amnesia, somethings cant be forgotten no matter what. Be it the best memories or the worst memories. I dont realli wan to say everything here. Its not being fair toanyone, and i don think its appropriate as well. Its ok if we cant even be friends. Its ok even if msn are totally useless. Its ok if smses or calles are nv made. But i still regard u as a friend. Even though these things happen, i know, there must be a reason, for the better or not, idk. Anyway, both of u have my blessings, Take care. =) BE BACK AGAIN SOON~

2009-02-28T23:12:00.002+08:00

okay. i think i gonna be a compulsive gambler liao. Everything also wan to gamble. Bad habit sia. Really hope next time i don gamble my assets,family and life away. touch wood* Gonna go gentle on gambling liao. Tho i won $140 from mj on thurs with ray,yang,hao. Jitao zimo 5 tai 3 times and dunno how mani 5 tai. Freaking lucky. Wan wht card come what card. lols.

ok. Bowling todae was okok. and if u all ever wonder how i bowl, here is one.

Avg onli, now im goin soft on my bowling also. Old liao. cannot giao too much. Not much pin 10 todae. lost money. Sad. May everything soonsoon lili ok. lols. update soon. CHIAO~

2009-02-21T12:55:00.000+08:00

EM3A was a killer paper, and when i tot i know how to do most of the qns, some of them tht im confident in, turned out to be wrong.

WTFZOMGWTHTH. felt so emo for awhile, and im freaking tired 2 more days to Freedom. And im nt feeling hols, tho i wan to chiong my business liao. Cash is tight on hand. No money = no singing, no burberry messenger bag, no porter waist pouch =( damn emo.

Nothing is impossible, impossible is nothing, possible is everything. BINGO! tada. =.=

2009-02-04T23:11:00.003+08:00

OK. Now its time to write out everything i have in mind, and i make sure i complete these tasks.

1st: Study Study Study for upcoming exams, no more slacking.

2nd : Save up money for rainy days, and i realli mean save! 1 week spend onli 70 if possible.

3rd: Goin into eumora soap now, so hopefully, this lil business will be successful.

4th: Train up for a kong body, NO MORE FLABBY FATS ON MY BODY!

I shall stick to these 4 stuff first before i do others. No more label shopping for mi. FOR THE TIME BEING =/ HAHAS.

And i dunno why u still came across my mind sometimes. I have already let go everything. I know its hard for us to talk again like normal friends. Well, maybe thts what u want. IDK. Hope u are doing fine. Take care peeps. =)

2009-02-01T11:31:00.003+08:00

And finally aft the long long wait. This is what im waiting for! hehehe

Went DFS to buy this and was hesitating when the price was 480 at first. The 390 one was sold out. So another 70 more. And i found a lil dent mark on this belt, and it was the last piece. hahas. suay. so asked whether there was a discount. Indeed aft the sales girl ask her manager, i got a 10% discount. So i juz buy nia. hahas.

Went bowling afterwards and gt totally no feel. No pin 10, and i giao the ball until my arm hurts like hell. Aft tht went to joe's temple and pray awhile bai nian awhile, la liang, and went to his hse for mj. Not a very nice day i had. But the thought of the belt makes mi happy =D

2009-01-28T19:41:00.004+08:00

ok its been ages since i update. I don have much readers also. hahas. its ok. nth much in my life, Cny this year is juz sooo sooo bored. No feel for cny lidat. Was at chalet on new year's eve and gambles like nobody business.

Played $1,$2 mj and i won life 80 bucks. Blink Blink, at night played blackjack and won $40. Blink Blink, next dae play mj, won another $20 and $40. Blink Blink. Played blackjack with the lil kids and uncle. The first time i bet so high in my life. $50 per bet. I also dunno what im doin.

Won $100++ at first. And here comes the best part. I lost everything in a single bet. Uncle got Double aces and blackjack subsequently. All gone. BLINK BLINK BLINK. What a new yr.

Yst went Stc to work, there wasnt much ang bao also. Lost a few bets on horses initially. And when it was race 10, i was so lucky to have served a green tea to a guest and i overheard tht her horse was racing, so 6 bets on WIN for her horse. Shared the bet with chester and BINGO! It came in first. hahahahas. all came back. recoup abit. and here is the ticket.

Hehehe. loves man. hahahas. Ended work and went to catch a movie with jy, mel, joe and my sis. Ink heart wasnt tht bad, i was juz sooo tired tht i dozed off a few times thru out the movie. Nice movie i would recommend. i rate it 3.5/5 . Aft tht went to have a lil supper and off i go to my sista hse. mj all the way till 6 in the morning, SHAGGED. What a cny i have. the most boring new yr i ever had. No feel for cny at all. Ogay. Im off to some movie now. CHIAO~

2009-01-02T16:52:00.003+08:00

like wtf did i do again? all these while i treated u as a fren, and now u sae we are thru. tell mi u are joking. i juz seriously don understand why are u doing all these. If i were to not treat u as a fren, do u think i fcuking bother to sms u last night. All the LL replies. I was staring at the com trying to think what can i reply, so as not to start another quarrel.

Everytime we talk, there will always be an unhappy ending. Here i am trying hard to salvage the whole thing, and in the end, everything was left a debris. Nothing i explain can save back anything. Think whatever u wan to think. Its juz all excuses from mi

2008-12-31T11:40:00.011+08:00

ok ppl. im finally back blogging. haven been in the mood to update recently. nth much during xmas. and skate camp juz ended. so im up with the piccas now. here we go.

We had video scavenger hunt whr they are to do certain tasks like, "order mc chicken w/o chicken patty." "Propose to a stranger" "ride a kids bike" and mani more.

Aft tht will be the station games. One of them is to take zilian photos. shall post the exotic photos here. ahahas.

yong wei with his super bunny face. saw with the dunno what tiko face. liting with the neoprint machine taking photo face. socks with the idki what to sae face, =) thts my lil girl with the squeezie face. yong wei with his "I WANT MY BANGSSS" and when he cant get his bangs, he trys to bite his wheels. when yw trys to bite his wheels, his gf gets sad. Jasper trying to figure skate. And he did it. he's giving a flying kiss to socks now. hahas now socks is happy =)

i gt like tons of videos in my com for the camp, but i shall juz pick some realli funny ones onli to post. emma proposing to a ang moh, to the anyone whom concern dont get angry. LOLs

ok im lazy to post the other vids cuz it took such a long time. damn. shall update again =)

2008-12-19T12:42:00.002+08:00

ok. its been a week, and patrick left for ns one week. Abit not used to it. LOL. mj also funny, sing also funny. soon la, he's coming out. Anw hols are here and im here slacking ard, nua on the bed till 12 plus 1.

Chiong hk drama like nv b4. finished a 30-ep hk drama in like 2 days? hahas mom is goin overseas soon, tgt with my sis. Which means mi and dad were left at hm. T.T i wan cash!Its christmas soon.

2008-12-12T06:38:00.002+08:00

Do i really deserve this treatment frm you? Wth did i do? Does everything i do have to come with a motive? No. I doubt so. You said u were playful. Fine enough. But have u spare a thought of my feeling? I don think so. try putting urself in my shoes, and see how it feels like. To be played by someone, and it actualli hurts so much it feels as tho a knife stabbing into your heart repeatedly.

Yes u cared for mi. I thank you. But if u realli do, would u even sms mi all those stuff u said last night? It was normal for mi to feel like this. If the person were u, i think u would long ago fcuked the person upside down. I apologised. U said it was useless. And what else more can i do? I know its stupid to sae this here. But if i were to sms u again or msn u, u would even feel more pissed.

We don understand each other well. I dont know what u ever wants, neither do u. I tried changing. to all those stuff that blend into urs. I realli tried. just that u cant see the surface. If skating wasted alot of the times we supposed to have, i skated less. Like once in a mth? or twice? Only my CCA on thurs den i went down. You want a guy who saves for the future, rather than spending all on you. Well i did it. i have saving per week, and i spend wisely.

Its useless saying all these. I just feel like ranting whats on my heart all these while. Neither am i trying to prove anything to you, and i dun have a motive at all.

2008-12-11T00:41:00.001+08:00

I seriously felt the pain tht stab tru my heart now.

2008-12-10T23:43:00.004+08:00

pls fucking tell mi this is a prank. sometimes i realli dowan to hear the truth. But i still noe whats goin on. WHY? WHY? Why am i getting such treatment frm u?

Why is this FUCKING WORLD FULL OF LIES? Do u realli have to do tht? Or u did it on purpose? Im so disappointed.

ya and i think its time. to realli get the fuck off ur life.

2008-12-09T18:34:00.002+08:00

Ok. em3a suck! tho i did revise for the paper, with peeps and myself at hm, doing 5 papers, i still have queries. paper was hard enough tho i noe how to do the 1st 3 qns.

Feeling abit down due to some stuff. And im starting to hate goin hm for dunno what fucking reason. Everyday i go hm its nag and nag and nag, even tho its small matters, still nag! Im so sick of it. Gonna mug for D.E.C paper ltr and tml. Pray hard i can do 80% of the paper on thurs.

You still stand a huge space in my heart =/

2008-12-07T13:32:00.011+08:00

alrights ppl! this shall be a veri long post with mani mani pics, so enjoy.

Shall start on my bdae, Aftn went over to pizzahut to have lunch with some of my classmates, so they actualli treat mi the food =.= which i insist on paying and they juz wouldnt let mi pay =/

Thx for the food ppl, and the cake, which was such a surprise tht i didnt expect. well, let the piccas do the talking
=D aico wanted to take pic of zhi and zhi was ps, aft 5 sec he went faster, this post is most handsome liao, faster take =.= clem and nan. nan with the serviette and he went, wo shi xiao niang re =.= Take 1 with the guys. And there is always a take 2 =/ mi and the girls, and note the old lady behind the pic, SCARY. the surprise "brownie" which is actualli a small cake for mi =D Aft the candle was blown and i happily feed all of them with the brownie, cuz i was too full =/ Next stop was my bbq which went on smoothly? i guess? =/ pat went running behind mi and suddenly PIAK, i tot it was some shower foam at first and they go, ewwww thts moouse =.- thx pat =/ and the nice cake bought by my real blood sis =) thx singing the bdae song the ang family =) sista and her handsome bf =D and what kexin called, the lighter bros =.= thx pat for the face the bros with wind in it and this is what happen when they gt sick of their gfs and come hugging mi =/ oopppppssss and the ladies. emma like a tall onli o.0 the bdae card frm the peeps. and i haven took pic of the presents i received, tho its nt much but im still glad i received those =) And juz smth tht's been on my mind all these while,

i know ive been a nuisance, maybe keep "fan" u all these while, and this shouldnt be happening at this point of time. Its just untimely. I have exactly no idea why the sudden rush of feelings for u. Up till now, i still don deserve another chance frm u, till i change, change for the better, change to suit ur life.

I know this is absoutely redundant. But its juz something tht hit my head so much telling mi to be with u.Im so sorry and i wun be bothering u for a moment, till everything died down, its been hard on you. To have take all these burden down on ur own, carrying the blame and shits like tht one you.

Right here, i juz wan to tell u tht no matter i liked u or not, i will still be by ur side and stand by u, listening to all ur rants, (is possible) lend u a shoulder to cry on, or even be ur punching bag. Nt everyone is strong. whoever u have lost, im still here standing for u, be it thr is a motive or whatever. I DON GIVE A SINGLE SHIT.

2008-12-04T21:40:00.006+08:00

alrights, some of the piccas up, frm may's hp. here we go And i was sick todae, skate was cancelled due to bad weather, nevertheless, went to kexin hse to ATTEMPT to study =.= was too tired so bored till she decided to take pics of my Headporter baggie,

nid a good rest tonight =(

im feeling the shagness. nights ppl

2008-12-04T19:06:00.003+08:00

can anyone believe this is my handwriting? lols. believe it or not

hahas. gu niang rights. studying at kexin hse now. all the best to mi =) shall post up the pics frm yst soon.

2008-12-04T03:47:00.002+08:00

thankz to those who came. im realli happy. glad it went smoothly. tho smth went wrong at the last time. And thank u, ti kong, dua peh kong, de zhu gong for letting it nt rain =D shall post the pics when i gt it.

How i wish tht 10 mins was 24 hrs, and how i wish time would turn back, and stop thr. Im missing u alr =(

2008-12-03T00:37:00.001+08:00

why do i still feel sad even though its my bdae? thx to those peeps who text mi and wished mi.Abit dissapointed in u =(

2008-12-03T00:05:00.006+08:00

happy birthdae to mi =D. ti kong bo bi. Todae don rain. pls pls. hahas. and i gt myself a b'dae present.

HP shoulder bag is new love nw =D long dae tml. nights peeps =)

2008-11-26T23:14:00.003+08:00

Down with serious flu. And my head is freaking shaking like drunk. Did nth at all todae. slacked at hm doin nth but blog hopping =.= praying hard to get well soon =(

2008-11-26T00:29:00.004+08:00

yayieee. new skin. credits to kexin. LURBBBEE you la. haha! this few weeks wassnt in the mood to blog. too many things happen, dont feel like talking abt it, last tues went csc, jason is soo OMFGWTFHOLYSHIT. XIAO JING TENG POSSESSED!!!! hahahs. and i juz went csc again todae, singing session almost every tues =.=

and PDA IS DRIVING MI CRAZY, my pjt to be done in 2 sessions

im off. update soon =)

2008-11-10T23:31:00.001+08:00

went csc and sang nt more than 5 songs. Have been moody for dunno wha #^$! reason, sang ard 5 songs and i went toplay pool with the pros. Well, lose to them w/o saying. And why is everyone ard mi attached? I so want to let go of the past alr.

In a dilerium for themoment.

2008-11-06T23:42:00.004+08:00

the eye chooses what it wants to see.

the heart chooses what to keep.

maybe its time i really put u down and treat u like my best fren? I shall try k. I make no promises. But i hope tht shall be the last time im saying all those things to you. =/ thx for giving mi those wonderful memories. =) It shall be kept in my heart always.

My heart still hurts alot =(

2008-11-01T14:15:00.003+08:00

Im feeling down these 2 days. IDK why. I've haven been sleeping well these nights. And i dont know why my heart is missing you so dearly. And i finally understand tht msg u sent mi last time.

I woke up with a pain in my heart, i dont jnow where it came from, until my mind reminded mi that its the pain of missing you.

Im going through this every morning, and every night. its always you that i thought of, the first thing in the morning and the last thing before i slp at night. During classes, i dont know why my mind would have come to a pic of mi and u holding onto each other hands.

Even till now, you still hold the largest space in my heart. nobody can replace you. All i want is you. Nobody else. Im always trying hard to forget these, but i just cant help it. In many occasions, i almost called u B. But somthing held mi back. Im still nt used to calling ur name. Its so weird.

PS : SO NEAR YET SO FAR

2008-10-30T23:28:00.004+08:00

i cant do long posts. sry dudes. will keep it a short one. Nth much in my life. haven been blogging much lately.Went urban last sat and was a nota bad day.

Haven been sleeping well lately. issit the reason why imu? i keep thinking of u everynight. And how i tried to hope and hope tht u were juz beside mi hugging mi to slp. I didnt cherish u. I didnt take note of the small smal details tht were actualli huge enough to ruin these r/s. I juz nid another chance. I will change for u. Im willing to change myself.

P.S : ILU

2008-10-22T23:11:00.002+08:00

backieee.... Theese few days was working. last week work for sgpools, stc. Macaim i veri gambler lidat. All jobs are associate with gamblin. LOL.

Fri was nice woking. We finally were back to who we are last time. It juz feels like the same old mi & u who juz knw. (Though we know veri long liao) Im glad tht we were what we used to be. Im super happy. Nth can describe this feeling =D.

Sat was work with ben at vivo, for sg pools connect. Nth much. stand for long hrs. At night met PAtrick went over to chevrons. Rudy's b'dae. (WA SI LIN LAO BEI) hahahas. Sing till 11 plus. I can sing HEI SE YOU MO sia. nice or not ppl comment on tagboard k. lols.

tues was shopping with xy. Spent 200 odd tht dae. lol. but im satisfied. =) its worth it. Shall blog again. IDK how to post long long sia. CHIAO

2008-10-15T18:20:00.014+08:00

yayieeee. im back! anyone misses mi? up with mani photos. Went genting on the 6th oct for a 3 days 2 night trip with pat and gang.

The trip wasnt realli smooth. but who cares. the 4 of us plus pat's parents enjoy can liao. first dae was theme park. first thing go in all drag mi go solero. in case u all don know wats solero here is one.

its 7 storeys high. and when u are up thr. dropping down. i swear! guy's balls will auto go in. L O L!!!

these 3 P.B.K all sit tgt. make mi emo suck thumb sit another corner.

And thts my BOY. ANDY! lols.

Day 2 went to buy some stuff back for the girls. souveniors. And some awsome lighters for the 4 of us.

Last dae was ah yat abalone restaurant with the 4 of us + pat's parents.

2008-10-02T11:36:00.001+08:00

Sorry for everything.

2008-09-24T19:16:00.009+08:00

sry for the lack of updates guys. wasnt in the mood lately. Aft my macau trip, nth much happen drastically in my life. Skate, eat, shopping, mj, csc (sing k) slp. So 20th was pat's chalet.

Went down cdans for a few games of bowling, and my skills are still thr =) stayed at hm for awhile and head down to parkroyal hotel for a wedding dinner frm my dad's cousin side. Food wasnt bad, their wedding gifts are actualli small shot glasses =D So aft tht, took a cab down to pat's chalet. No bloody single cab was available, all on call. !@#$%^&(* Waited for 30 mins den gt 1 cab, go changi, whr pat's chalet is at pasir ris. so uncle ok.

Off to pat's chalet. Played mj. Den they play joker. My first time playing. starting i won 30+ but in the end i lost 70 odd. i was totally stunned. My first huge loss in entire life. $70. and its onli 20-40. WTF. Nvm aft tht went back to gang's room. almost all ko. Pat ko'ed early, joe too ko'ed early. i didnt drink. talk awhile, and emma was the onli one tht wasnt asleep. so talk cock abit, eat breakfast, den went back to slp on the floor with emma. Cramped till zzz. nth to sae. it was 10 plus when i was aslp. and woked up at 3 plus. so slacked ard, chatted with pat's mom and cut cake time. pat's mom was classic.

Pat's mom : Eh, faster take the cake out, blow candle eat finish faster. Very late liao. (btw its onli 8 plus)

I dunno pat wan to cry or laugh. hahas.

Aft chalet, we went hm and at ard 7 plus go bugis, another surprise for the bdae boi. Jitao slp till 7 plus 8 den pia cab down. Ke xin made a card for him and a XXL collarge Super nice la. Bet he touched. Ate katong laksa talk cock awhile and went hm.

Last night went over to kexin's hse to mj. its funny playing on a box and we had to sit on the floor. Had a lil misunderstandings here and thr. But i hope to clear all these. Im really sorry bro. Didnt realli meant it. i didnt tot u would be so serious.

CHIAO

2008-09-06T14:25:00.005+08:00

ok im finally back =D. 30th aug. went to far east find my sista den go cut hair. new stylist cut my hair. Was a lil afraid though, cuz he nv cut b4. But overall nt bad. Super daring i can sae, cut all my hair without asking mi how to cut and let mi see until the end. Aft tht went yong wei's chalet. All late. Bloody hell haove to wait so long. Aft awhile i nid to go off.

31st aug. Supposed to go bugis with joe. but tt ass PS mi. So called manda my daughter to acc m i buy stuff. I choose the right person along! hahas. Next time go shopping tgt. hahas. bought a tee, hoodie, belt, and berms. cost mi $120++ lols. But was well spent. good. hahas.

1st sept. left for macau trip, 4 days 3 nights. nt tht bad. Was quite fun. First dae touch down nth much. At night went to gold sand casino walk walk. play jackpot lose 30+. play table lose 50+. juz nt my luck

!@#$% And the hotel im staying in

2nd Sept. Went over to chu hai for shopping. hohoho. Girls dun miss the chance. the stuff is dirt cheap. a pair of shoes for like $10 and its nt tht bad. if u dun care for the label. Shit are like cheap. $5-8 bucks? lols. Aft tht went over to a boutique to bu a giorgio armani bag. lazy to take pic of tht bag. cost mi $2-300. cant rem the exact price. Bought a rayben aviator too. lol. night was jackpot again. stupid mi. win money alr still dowan to go.in the end. lost everything. lols. WELL DONE!

3rd sept. Went over to Da sam ba to buy stuff. Their wax thr are ZOMG cheap. lols. $15 for a bot of erractic wax whr i bought $35 frm saloon. Sebas clay for 20 plus? and i nid to pay $60 plus in a saloon in sg. So dun care. buy both. lols. At night. jackpot again. lols. frm 11 plus till 7 in the morning. jitao shag. but last day liao. who cares.

4th sept. Woke up at 11 plus and pepared to pack stuff hm. lols. aft tht. JACKPOT again. lols. last day liao. who cares. till 2 plus we left for the airport. And my aunt made a mistake in the ticket. so nid to buy another tickt which cost 400+. wasted. reached sg at 7.50 bought baileys mint choc cuz cant fin barcadi 151 for pat. aft tht, home sweet hm.

5th sept went to gym with pat and joe. pat forever slp king. late again. lols. super tired. aft so long nv gym. whole body ache like fug. lols . thts all. shall blog soon =D

2008-08-27T02:15:00.002+08:00

Well. im back to blog. and its the 5th dae since i had diarhrrea. sians. whole stomach cramp like fug. anw im also back from the post camp celebration. had lotsa fun thr, and i prepared the food mostly and tiring like shit. although sick, but whenever i do things, esp food stuff, i will make sure i give them the best food i can, so as nt to disappoint them. Ok. seafood was gd, but bbq wholesale things werent realli nice. At night when we went up the appartment tht shu wen book for us, was veri surprised. The furniture inside wasnt wat i expected. It was nice. Played some games and stuff, aft tht we scare ppl. was kinda boring. Shall upload the video soon. And heng yi's expression was priceless. hahas. Skip tht. aftn 3 plus went to bbdc for btl 1.02 and i fell asleep thr. like so ps can. lols. juz went over to ace's hse for mj and lose to the 情场失谊，赌场得意 patrick. hahas. walked ard aft tht and come hm now.

I think i make a lousy bf. I didnt realli catch the small details tht u realli liked. I guess we have lack in communication. We cant communicate well. And i feel tht i didnt treat u well enuf when u was with mi. Im sorry here. But these can onli be memories. You definetly play a huge role in my life. I juz wanna thank u for those memories. Im not the guy u will realli wanna make mi ur bf. I controlled my tears almost everynight thinking of u. sometimes i juz so wanna text u telling u how much i miss u and stuff. But its no longer the 2 mths ago period of time we had. I guess friends are what we can do. trying to give u up but i juz dunno what my heart wants. i dont know what im thinking. i nid someone to brainwash mi pls. It feels terrible in my heart. I love you. bye

2008-08-22T17:01:00.005+08:00

ok. Exams over. Hooray and boo at the same time. EMD was quite ok, managable for mi la. but for ECAM. Sucks to the core la. quite a few qns cant do. damn. forget abt it. Sundae was a long dae. hahas. frm work went to sembawang for the SNFC competition go thr see see.

Aft awhile, go pandan loop. lols. went to dad's cousin place, which was so called a "temple". was thr nt long and went for some "tattoo-ing." A shi fu help mi to put scriptures inside and the results are below -->

Its not pain at all. Itchy i sae. hahas. didnt want to put it in black ink or red ink. so asked the shi fu to put in some incense oil form. aft a few weeks it cant realli be seen. who cares. its the "stuff" in it thts impt. hahas.

long dae sia. rain, stop ,rain stop. Comp was draggy. too a few pics too. me, with the top 2 sliders in sg. hahas. ok i look stupid here.

This week is a hella torutre. everydae chiong study. Less den 4 hrs of slp everydae. yawns.

Aft see-ing ur blog, i realli dunno what to do. i noe u still like him. im also miss-ing u everydae. Every moment i think of u. My friends have been asking mi to woo another girl and nt wait. but all feelings are so damn different. I noe tht i still love u. Nth can change tht fact. Aimless-ly waiting for u till u come back to mi............................

2008-08-16T15:45:00.007+08:00

Yes ppl. Im still alive. No worries. Hahahas. Its a long time since i blog, and i fell sick last week. Damn! was sick for almost a week. Cough, fever, back pain, headache and sore throat. All come in one shot. hahas and this week onli am i starting to study. lols. but i already completed 70% of my studies. Clap clap.

hahas. next wed and fri having one paper each and im free. lols This tues was delson's bdae. One of the skaters in SA. and we went over to celebrate aft i fin my studying at _ _ _. secret. lols. And amanda was goin ard with my cam asking ppl to take pics with her. hahahas. and my cam was full of her pics lol. and the last pic was the best. hehehe. lets share ur pic amanda =D thts my fist on her head.. hahahahahas

Jus went over to dad's cousin's "temple". He's a ah chan. or some shi fu. And first thing i go thr. dad's fren pushed mi to go put the scriptures tattoo =.= in the end, i didnt. hahas. mom gonna kill mi if she sees tht. hahas. chiao guys.

2008-08-05T12:01:00.002+08:00

this few days. kinda bored. stayed at hm yst and rot the whole dae. Now im like so so sick. fever, headache,sore throat, and my back hurts. For dunno what **** reason. Argh. Like a sian. i onli have one wish now. Tht is to stay with u and able to call u bi rather than ur name. I realli miss the times we had tgt and i so miss u can. I know u might be seeing this. But this is juz what im thinking. You sure have alot of suitors. I know. All i wanna do is find a way back into love. 请你看看我，真的许要你的我，只要你回头。

2008-08-02T22:34:00.011+08:00

ok. updates. its been a busy week. thurs was the mini competition for our skate club. And i was the DJ of the day =D although its nt realli nice, as in the music, cause they onli have the left input and no right input. =.= abit stupid la. sound nt realli nice. the bass and everything was juz so wrong. But we have our powerful emcee, DANIEL. I realli respect him sia. All his entertainment and how he present his stuff out. Although i gt a sucky voice. But i still wanna try be an emcee. super cool huh. Aft tht camwhore with my BRO, Amanda lee. hahas

Aft tht, went market eat, Bro has to leave early, so she went of with ian and zhi wei. Thus left mi and the gang. so, camwhore again =)With Amanda yeo now. Like alot of amanda i know sia =.

Aft tht, i skated hm =.= with KC, Rudy, Ace, heng yi. the journey sure is long and tireing. And nt to forget a deep fall.

!@#$%^&*(#$% cb i fell on my wrist again. Like on the old injuries. And its damn painful, and my right shoulder also kana. jialat.

Friday had my PCN lab test. i think i was correct in part A. But i no confidence. So asked hui for all the answers. And i foound out tht all my answers wrong. Cuz we diff paper. WTF!~!!But nvm la. I gt full marks for Part B =D Was leaving to meet manda yeo to study. But who knows tht pig fell asleep and i called her straight aft my test to confirm with her. =.= BOOOO. And the best part is she come down nv bring books. And tell mi to gossip at starbucks summore =.= AND AND AND she eat fish bee hoon like 1/2 hr. wah piang.nvm went home to take skates and went senja skate. like so sian. AND we starting camwhoring again =)

AND TO END OF WITH THIS!!!

2008-07-28T23:41:00.002+08:00

Ok. time to blog. have been lazy to update. well. this week nth much. was a relatively fun week. thurs skate as normal, went makan and went hm. I have been donating funds to comfort recently. Almost everydae like a donate to them lidat. fri went to work. was alright. I dunno why tht feeling still comes to mi. I know u have forgotten mi long ago. sometimes i juz will think back of the times. i know im a lousy guy. aft like 2 mths and i cant forget. sometimes i ask myself. Issit possible if i woo u back? Can i? Will we last again? My thoughts are running wild these few days. Even pat know. (tru counting cards). I know somethings tht i don wanna know. But thts life.

Anw, back to sat. went sentosa with friends. I tot i was the latest. took cab thr. onli 4 person reach. jm and xan haven even reach. So went to arcade slack and play game. Aft tht is sentosa! The sun nt realli big till we sian. ard 4 plus. Went to buy cup noodles den sun big big.. =.= fated nt for mi to tan. Aft tht pat count cards. Everyone has their own probs. My mind is juz in a whirl now. idk why. I cant juz seem to control what i think. Aft sentosa was dinner. It was okok onli. Didnt wan to eat till too full. And aft eating went to vivo slack. We saw someone unexpected. Haha. Another scandal in our skate club. tsk. Emo one corner and we started playing true or dare. Xan got the last one. And we make him do something funny. lazy to sae la. hahas. aft tht cab home again. tht dae burnt a big hole in my pockt. But im rich right pat =/

Sundae was fine work till du lan. BUT play mj with sista and won ard 50. plus i gt my long long finally wanna watch de movie. WANTED!. hahas. Movie marathon last night.

Todae is the dae la. went alumni and sing. shu wen joined us. I was so so damn shock tht shu wen voice was ZOMG!!! power. hahas Enjoyed singing. although abit pricey. Once in a while can la. Nvm im rich!!! lols. asked pat to count cards for mi again. Although i wanna noe somethings, he told mi another one instead. Which i was so not prepared. Theres 2 stuff. I duno whether to happy or sad for the latter of the formation of the cards. Maybe i can juz give u my blessings again. Which i hope he treats u well. thts all.

2008-07-22T22:31:00.003+08:00

ok. ttu. (time to update) this few days kinda bored. starting frm sundae. was suppose to go over to sista hse to play mj. but she veri veri veri sick. so no choice. cancel. 2 weeks nv mj. And my hands are starting to itch badly. pls. this sundae. Mj ok? Haha. Faster ask ur boss la sis. sat i let u all off patoh. lol.

Anw mondae was alright. Ended my jap lesson at 2 plus which is so damn freaggin early. So went over to Myspace to look for shu wen. Aft tht was suppose to go market celebrate b'dae for ben, with shu wen and gang. In the end, i change my mind and i went to watch movie with pat and amanda, jy tag along. Stupid pat. took fuggin long and we waited like more than 40 mins at the bustop. went to watch the 9.30 "The Dark Knight". It was like 2.5 hr long. sit till my butt numb.The movie was alright. and amanda who is sitting beside mi keep covering her mouth for dunno what reason. haha. By the time we finish watching the movie, it was like 12 plus. tht girl was so lucky to have caught her bus home. Well mi, jy and pat went to took a bus to bouna vista. And we took a cab home. =.=

Todae was alright. went fir the gym and waited for my dearest cousin till he ps and sae dowan to go. singing at halo bar and i drank 2 glasses of drink. Gin tonic. Aft tht baileys. Baileys was nice. i guess when i go macau i would buy a bot home. well thts all.

chiao

2008-07-18T22:19:00.013+08:00

ok its ttb ( time to blog ) lame. ok long time nv update alr. lazy la. And someone keep asking mi to update. ps.(although she asked mi to update on wed) well its fri night anw. i shall start on last sat,sun. was working at stc(singapore turf club) for the singapore derby event, and i worked like a dog. although my job was juz to stay in the bar. I helped some of my collegues do something. like replenish the food blah blah. i swear the guests thr were as if relaease frm hell. LIKE HUNGRY GHOST!

ok enough of tht. next was mondae. As usual jap lesson. Which i flunk. I was confident enough to do the test. but still i failed. !@#$%^&*()_!@#$%^&*(*&^%$#@ nvm. aft jap lesson we went to Halo bar. with pat joe and jy. we went in and ordered a bottle of Chivas. it was 150++ and in the end we gt everything at 140 nett. I am a member. Thts y 10% discount. and we sang alot. Joe emo and gt drunk. This is the 1st time i see him drunk, and i heard tht he can hold his liquor quite well. So it a surprise to mi. one of the pics tht i took.

Tues was boring, esp PCN class. so mi aico, eileen, natalie, nicole left the class and play board game. SNORTAL. if im nt wrong. we are to make the animals sound tht the person started. Its damn stupid. esp natalie. ouuuhhhhhhhh. We were laughing so loud tht other table gt irritated. But its juz too funny we cant control.

one of the pic we took.

wed was boring. skip. thurs went for skating as usual. and we left early like 8 plus. went to a mini hk cafe type to eat dinner. I can sae its quite cheap and the food thr is nt bad. Its juz beside al-azhar. So guys, can try the food thr next time.

fri, which is todae. went for lesson as usual, and i skiped emd. Just to go enrol in BBDC, and the things are super messy. as in the briefing. but who cares. cab to and fro this week. almost everydae cab. i spend a bomb on cab alr sia. anw SISTER, was kind enough to wait for mi tru the briefing. thx ar. if nt i realli blur like cock lidat. we shall pass BTT tgt. LOL. hahas. Just fin skating and amanda fell. her chin was bleeding non-stop. i was kind enough to take serviets and iced water to stop her bleeding. BUT it still bleeds. DAMN. nvm. im homed anw. bye guys. shall update my blog when i gt time again. hehes.

chiao

2008-07-09T08:23:00.002+08:00

ok. its early in the morning. Juz woke up and i msg-ed her. yea she is sick. i know. frm mondae i alr know smth is wrong. how i wish i could stay beside her and take care of her needs, even though she's nt mine anymore. sometimes i juz wished to go back to the life whr we were tgt. talking sweet nothings and the feeling is just so nice.

I shall pray hard tht her bf treats her well and take are of her when she is sick or when she needs to. thts all i wan. For her to stay healthy always and cheerful. I pray for you.

bye

2008-07-08T13:48:00.003+08:00

Like super sian now can. in pcn class, teacher teaching i doin nth. so decide to update.

Anw nth much yst gt jap test/ quiz. Not tht bad, at least i know smth, and the class was effing cold. super sian. slack througout the whole dae at hm do nth and maple.

Shld nbe goin to the gym with zik ltr. And with my Dear Dear tml. =.= thts wad he call mi. nbccb !@#$%^&*)(*&^%

One of the pics taken last yr in dec. WILL TRY TO BE KONG AR!

2008-07-07T10:01:00.005+08:00

nothing much, was mapling on sat and sudenly my dad ask mi to go pick durians =.= like aft 3 yrs i didnt go in alr sia. so went in twith him to the forest near the highway. And i notice tht singaporeans realli like to eat durians, and they dowan to buy. Go inside pick. =.= wth. anw we went in and i picked 3-4? cant remember. juz hear the durians drop den run thr. like so mani ppl inside. u will be shocked. the forest is like so ulu. and when u lift ur head up, u at least see 100 durians aboove u, as if going to drop anytime. went in for like 2 hrs, and we went out panting,. Imagine 20 durians on ur back and walking ur way out. Fruitful trip i can sae, and i earned 8 mosquito bites. BASKET!

sunday, router spoil. no internet for an afternoon. although i tab ppl connection awhile. ask my sis's bf come. lol sam ar. thx bought a router at 99. an average one la. den aft the come back fix. and went over to her hse maple. =.= up 7 lvls there. like maple life is now zak-ing, ah ma-ing and clocking away la. i can solo papu sia. lol. 10 mins. shiok! aft tht mahjong awhile. 1 pok took us ard 3 hrs. wth sia. diao zeng until =.= although i did win like 30+ till west. i didnt like game lo. all 5 tai 4 tai. zzz end up lose a few bucks. so u can imagine how mani times they diao zeng and gao. aft mahjong ms again. zak zak zak. ah ma ah ma ah ma. hahahas 300m in my acc. still goin. all the best to my jap test ltr =)

2008-07-05T13:41:00.002+08:00

Lets go! With blood shot eyes I watch you sleeping The warmth I feel beside me is slowly fading Would she hear me if I calls her name? Would she hold me if she knew my shame?

There's always something different going wrong The path I walk's in the wrong direction There's always someone fucking hanging on Can anybody help me make things better?

Your tears don't fall They crash around me Her conscience calls the guilty to come home Your tears don't fall They crash around me Her conscience calls the guilty to come home

The moments died, I hear no screaming The visions left inside me are slowly fading Would she hear me if I calls her name? Would she hold me if she knew my shame?

There's always something different going wrong The path I walk's in the wrong direction There's always someone fucking hanging on Can anybody help me make things better?

Your tears don't fall They crash around me Her conscience calls the guilty to come home Your tears don't fall They crash around me Her conscience calls the guilty to come home

Oh! Yeah!

This battered room I've seen before The broken bones they heal no more, no more With my last breath I'm choking Will this ever end I'm hoping My world is over one more time

Lets go Would she hear me if i calls her name? Would she hold me, if she knew my shame?

There's always something to be going wrong The path I walk's in the wrong direction There's always someone fucking hanging on Can anybody help me make things better?

Your tears don't fall They crash around me Her conscience calls the guilty to come home Your tears don't fall [tears don't fall] They crash around me Her conscience calls the guilty to come Back!

Your tears dont fall they crash around me Her conscience calls the guilty to come home.

2008-06-28T13:11:00.003+08:00

ok. first official post. starting frm thursday, skating was normal, official hand down of post and new committee in 2008 inline skate club. As usual, internal conflicts and all those crap. was super sian and moodless, so pei my daughter go arket eat porridge and went home early. Dont know why like super restless and tired. 27th june 2008 Another fridae, woke up and nua on my bed. super sian. went to sch late and went to work with li jie. stupid SM gct, and his super cmi admin, host, whatever. keep complaining dunno what fuck and the CB CAT gan gan gan. ran up and down mani times to satelite kit. went home and ko on my bed. tts all. enjoy my first post =)

2008-06-24T22:18:00.000+08:00

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