super long w/o updates! just feel like posting something here regardles who is reading this blog, its been quite some time since i felt like this. and i hope that time will jus stop there for us to be tgt all the while cuz i seriously enjoyed ur company very much. how to train your dragon was a nice movie. see so cute right the dragon. hahahas. black fury. the tickts. =) lets jus pray hard there would b more time to be spent with you =)

its been a long time since i update. goin to be a mth or so. juz no feel to update, and lots of stuff happen recently. Just too much to say,idk, whats goin on my mind. PRESSURE? STRESS? of WHAT? idk.im just in a dilemia. i feel like crying out. when nobody is watching, cry as hard as i can. why? idk. life is just not smooth for mi. Relationship, money, studies. whatsoever. i just feel tht im a big time loser. be it life, game, relationship. If u are reading this, MAY, say its true and make mi feel better. No other meanings but just wnnna know how i look like to you. Can i change for the better? Am i too emotional? I just feel that im veri weak. Very very WEAK!



i have a fren tht suddenly asks mi. Fei, u gt XING SHI one meh? Cant realli see lei. You always laugh laugh lidat. And i start to ask myself back. Do i realli look like im carefree? Am i tht strong to hide away all my feelings when i am tired? Maybe a yes? maybe a No. Im weak. Strong on the outside but super weak on the inside. Why the sudden pressure within mi? I juz hope for someone i really love to stand by mi all the time. Watch mi fall and watch mi rise. Go through with me all the things that i encounter. Walk throught my life with me. Is it that hard to find the right one? Im thinking of you all the time. I may juz noe u for months but the image of you are always running through my mind. Im sick and tired of this life.


I so want to confess out what im trying to say. But i think its still early. And i don have the courage. The courage to get an answer that i always hate. WHY? because i cant accept to fail. To fall again. To have my heart broken again. This road is still long. I wanna walk with you throughout this year and hopefully the rest of my life. I know that right now studies is the most important thing. I just cant take it down that why cant we balance our life with work, studies, friends and love. Im sick and tired of this type of life. IM A TOTAL FAILURE. A BIG FUCKING FAILURE.

sometimes i feel tht im a loser, and a big time loser. never have i acomplish anything big or the things i wan. issit the way i am? can i change it? idk. so much for this. idk why, im feeling veri down. and now my drinking standard = sucks. so sucks. BUAY GAN LIAO! a bot or martell and abit mo. -.- WHAT IS WRONG WITH U ANG WEE KIAT! slaps myself hard. WAKE UP DUDE!

Its been a mth ever since i update my blog. Don have the vibe to update also. Alot of things happen in a mth. Friends were everywhr. And somehow i feel tht history is repeatng itself again now.

Im feeling what i felt a year ago. The feeligs were exactly the same. It may no be long ever since i know you. But its as if i know you for a long time. It was diff other girls teat mi like you do. The thing abt you is that u are so special, unique till i cant tell wats so distinctive about you. You stnd out fro the crowd. And i could recognise you amongst the huge crowd.You said you werent pretty, but in fact, i find you pretty in a way that is so different from others.

Lets hope what im thinking now is good, and i dowan history to repeat itself again, im goin 20. old enough to not play a fool in my life. Im missing you. =(

Why? Why others can love so happily and so comfortable, but mi? Its so hard for mi. So painful, so hurtful. It was my fault to step in, but this step in will nv reverse and make mi veri hard to step out again Genting was a nice trip, definitely with you. The 4 days was so totally memorable. =) and if u are reading this, THANKS FOR THE COMPANY~

Im so so lazy to post pics up here as i haven gt any of them yet. And *** i've fallen too deep liao. Whatever im doing, anytime, you are always on my mind. Its as if you are alr part of my life. I didnt wan to expect much. Just hope thtat u can spend more time with mi onli. This sure is messy. I know. But i can onli sae tht ILU. Nth else. bye

A cup of hot coffee, a book of new york times #1 seller (Twilight) and som oldies played on my speaker definitely makes the night wonderful =)

OK IM SUPER HUNGRY NOW~~~~ Don relli wan to do anything abt it. And im starting to feel real fat. And imean it. No more late supper maggie mees. No more slacking ard nuaing at hm. Im so gonna hit the gym like 3-4 times a week, take my duromine supply from my pharmacy,and did i mention tht i gt the prescribtion by the doc like finally. Aft much talking cock to him. =D ok. resolution done! 10kg within 2 mths.

my protein supplyment will have to wait awhile more. And im still thinking whether to buy the fat burning pills from tsw and eat it tgt with duromine. I shall put my heart into these. And last but not least. Premium will be my target for this mth. *9 more to go! all the best la. I know i can do it =x